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191031 update:
if u want the FULL context behind this video watch this: https://youtu.be/UVJqa5cCcGM
but heres some context:
hi im cindy, bts have been my ULT group since 2015 and ive been with them every single step of the way from then until now. i could write books about why my love for bts is so strong but for now i just ask that yall trust when i say i do genuinely love bts more than anything in the entire world.
NEVER ONCE did i expect them to speak english to me. I was fully prepared to speak only korean to them (except joon). i was so incredibly surprised by how great their english was (as i even complimented tae) cause i was truly expecting them to speak only korean to me…but they spoke to me in english first! so I continued the conversation in english. If at any point I believed they were struggling, I wouldve IMMEDIATELY switched to korean and i DID with jimin. As soon as jimin said “you know i dont speak english” i laughed then spoke to him in korean and the rest of the convo was in korean, so please dont say I forced them to speak english or that they looked “visibly uncomfortable” because if that were true, I wouldve switched to korean as I did with jimin. Their comfort is something of TOP priority to me.
Some said I didnt want jimins signature, that is not true. I stan ot7 and i love them all equally. I only had one gift because I couldnt afford to buy more since I spent LITERALLY EVERY PENNY i had on the fansign. I didnt even have enough money for food, I was living off of free sides from my uni’s food court. If I was rich then I wouldve bought 7 gifts but im not, i worked really hard for to save up for this fansign. anyway, i didn’t choose to give up jimins signature, i chose to give ANY signature away in a lottery that anyone could enter if they helped me pay for the fansign (cause even all of my money still wasnt enough and if the cost of meeting them meant giving up one signature then i could live with that because at least i met them) i let the winner decide which member they wanted and i picked the winner using a randomizer. i ended up becoming really close friends with the winner and i will always have the memory of meeting jimin so i’ll never regret giving his signature away because i know its with another army who also helped me pay for the fansign and is also my friend now!! (and i also have jimins post-it note where he answered my question so i still have something ♡)
Ppl are also saying its against the rules to get multiple albums signed, i read the rules carefully and there was no mention of it being against the rules. the only thing it stated was that the member can only sign ONCE so i knew i couldnt get a member to sign both my album and the winner of my giveaway’s. I still waited to see if anyone else was getting multiple albums signed and a girl before me took all 4 versions! she got a member to sign L, another to sign O, etc. and staff didnt say anything and they didnt tell me anything either. So I really do believe this was accepted at the time.
Ive also seen people saying that I didnt act like a k-army or that I didnt say what a real army would say.
I didnt act like a k-army because im not a k-army. K-armys were excited and ran up to the stage happily! I think cause theyre used to that. But for me as an i-army, this was EXTREMELY rare for me and i have anxiety so i was extremely anxious to meet them. I couldnt be excited and happy the same way the girls around me were. I also kept wanting to cry because it was very overwhelming but also out of happiness..
i wrote them letters saying everything i wanted to say so i wouldnt stress over memorizing what to tell them or be upset if i forgot/messed up what i wanted to say etc. I feel like if I wouldve told them face to face how much they mean to me then I wouldve started crying and that wouldve taken up time from talking and if anything I believed crying in front of them is what wouldve made them uncomfortable!! Its easy to imagine a perfect convo in your head where u say everything u wanna say but the reality is that a moment as IMPORTANT as this can be extremely overwhelming. so thats why i didnt (according to some) say what a “real” army would say.
despite the anxiety, i am INCREDIBLY grateful and HAPPY that i got to meet them ohmygod i wouldnt trade it for the world and if i had the chance to do it over again i would! in a heartbeat! the anxiety was worth it…
Last thing: I never expected this video to blow up. It was for my friends from twitter who wanted to see the full vid (this channel at the time only had like 2 subs so..) I had already explained on twitter that I spoke to jimin in korean so i didnt reiterate in the vid “this bit was in korean!” cause they already knew that. I also didnt explain my post-it notes for the same reason…
this was not meant to blow up but regardless I chose to share my experience and I wish people could be respectful about it.